New Year

So I was working with my cousins today. We had a short conversation that went something like this.

Brandon: "You excited about the new year?"
Me: "... Not really. Its just another day for me. What about you?"
Brandon: "Yea. It wasn't that good of a year. Up until the end of the year."
Jonathan: "Yea cause of Val's(val is brandons gf) brothers death?"
Brandon: "Ohh that too."
Me: "And going to the ER for blood poisoning?"
Brandon: "Yea that too"
Me: "And when you crushed your thumb? Do you remember the order?"
Brandon: "Yea. Beginning of the year had swine flu. Then crushed my thumb. Had glass in my hand. Blood poisoning. Vals thing."

The conversation wasn't word for word, but you get the idea. It made me wonder like I guess my year wasn't that bad of a year. But then again majority of those things were physical things. My cousin seems to be very carefree and happy despite all those things. Idk why I can't be the same. Something I have time to think about during break.

Every year there are like checkpoints that I compare with since last year. One is in February, my birthday, end of springs semesters, end of summer, September, and the end of the year. It seems like every year everything stays the same. There are small things that change. Maybe I just got to be optimistic.

Christmas Time

I don't really like getting gifts for people just for a special occasion. I prefer to get gifts randomly like if Im shopping and I know someone is looking for something in particular. During Christmas I really do prefer to give than receive. Past Christmases(Is that a word?) my cousins would give me gifts, even my dad. And those gifts weren't anything I wanted or needed. It ends up going into my closet or whatever and just takes of space. This Christmas I ended up getting gifts just for a few people. Probably the best one was Jaime's I got her the Lotso bear at the Disney store. It smells like strawberries too! Majority of the gifts I got this year was food/snacks. My mom always gave food as gifts when she didn't know what to get them. I kinda don't really want food either lol.

End of the semester

Loving you no more- Dirty Money

So at first I wrote about the end of my semester. Then that sounded all hateful and stuff like that. To sum it up, this semester started off where last semester ended. Crappy. Academically it wasn't that bad. Two classes Im worried about. The personal aspect was pretty crappy. Probably one of the worst so far. I think it has been progressively getting worse every semester. Maybe things will be better next semester. "The night is darkest just before the dawn" right? Another thing I tried to run this semester. I kept up with it for awhile until my knees started to hurt the day after. It wouldn't go away for a few days. I stopped running because I didn't want to aggravate it.

My last day of the semester was ok. I'll remember this one. I remember my last day of last semester too. Had a final at 7:15. I think I did pretty well. On my ride back home my mom asked if I needed to go anywhere and I said I needed to go serramonte to get my sisters gifts. I ran into an old friend that works at Gamestop. The first thing she said to me was "Hey cutie!!" I was kinda like "whoa when did you start calling me that?" But it was nice to see an old friend.

Cousin said he help with work. He has a lot of shipping to do and opened up his store at stonestown. He said I'd work the store if they needed me. That be kinda nice tho. Have human contact with people on a daily basis, instead of staying at home and doing nothing. Unless I do shipping which is basically me in front of a computer for a few hours. But at least it'll keep me busy this winter break along with an income. I also need to work on my resume and cover letter for this internship for the city. I was suppose to do it during the school year and show it to my 100w teacher so he could correct it and stuff. But that never happened. I guess thats because I just got lazy. I really do need to work on it before it's too late.

Hopefully this break I'll get to do something I tried to do over summer. But that didn't happen over summer. And this break is so short. I don't have high expectations for next semester. I just hope it will be better than last semester. Looking at it though, idkkk.

"Im going in circles"

Holding you down - Jazmine Sullivan
My friend told me something this weekend that is really the truth to everything.

"idk bryan i'm not going to tell u what to do cause only u can figure it out u know?"

I really appreciate a honest answer. Like they seriously thought about everything and decided that was the best thing to say.

Gibberish

Gibberish-Ryan Leslie

Its been awhile since my last post. School has really taken a lot of my time. I kinda expected it the beginning of the semester. Past three weeks has been stressful. There was this one thing. Then there was midterms. Then there was this other thing. Hopefully this upcoming week will be better. Got like two projects, midterm, and some other stuff in between. If I can hold on for a bit then the semester will be over soon.

Second thought. I've been listening to Ryan Leslie lately. Saw this video on youtube and I was like thats amazing!


I thought this one was too


I'm probably late with all these video. Better late then never though. But never late is better.

Random Post

During my Engineering 100W class my professor said it was the day he got married. Then he said something that I will always remember. "The first two words a man should learn, "Yes dear"."

This gives me an idea...

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/food/dad-makes-worlds-most-incredible-pancakes-2399613/#photoViewer=1

Day 30- Who are you

I am Ron Burgundy?

Day 29- What you wore today

-Flatheads
-"Its gotta be the shoes" lebron tshirt (Would've worn a white tee but I didn't want to take a new one out)
-Purple Avengers

Id take a picture but Im lazy

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Last Year

This year


What perfect timing. A picture of me last year with Jen. And a picture this year with jen on her birthday!

Umm idk? I look the same right?

Day 27- A collection you have

I have a lot of pokemon cards from elementary school. I think I have the whole collection of the first cards that came out.

I would say a shoe collection. But I don't count it as a collection.

4 Years of maxim magazine. They aren't as good as they were before.

A bunch of toys. Star wars. Spawn. Gundam. Some other stuff too.

Day 26- What you think about your friends

I hate them all. Just kidding!

I have different groups of friends. The circle of course. Then I have my high school friends. And random people from like college or classes. I wouldn't be who I am today without them. Each person influences something in my life to make me change. Seriously tho, I wouldn't list each and every friend. I mean thats a lot of people to write about. Its like more than 10.

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Hmm in my backpack.

Planner
Carmex
Highlighter
4 color pen
Eraser
Dr Grip Lead Pencil
More pens inside
Calculator
Hand sanitizer
Lotion
Monocular
Folder with paper/transcripts/assignments
Gum

Day 24- A website

So I was suppose to finish this 30 day challenge like a few weeks ago but school is really taking a lot of my time. More than I what I expected. Ohh well.

A website. Facebook.

Btw I changed some of the blog post cause it was different from what my friends was. I googled 30 day challenge and the first 20 were the same. I wonder if my friend changed the topic too...

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

I always crave something sweet. Or a philly cheese steak and fries Mmmmm. I have my phases. Awhile back I wanted gummies, Cola gummies and gummy bears. Sometimes its chocolate. Haven't been craving those lately. Lately I've been craving some quickly's chicken. Or some sushi.

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Hmm idk? We're all different from everyone. Looks, personality, friends, etc.

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Ha! There are two people I can think of. But you can ask me when you see me. I prefer these things not to be open in the public.

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Haven't had much time to do my blog. Schoolwork really caught up with me and its only the third week.

Hmmm Bry, B and b.y. is the only one I've been called. Don't really have much nicknames. My friend in elementary school use to call me Bry. Some people occasionally call me Bry but not everyone. B isn't something I get called a lot but I've been. b.y. is from Kevin. He would call me that when we lived together. I really dunno why its b.y. I think he just got confused.

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

-Lose weight and get the body that I want.
-Be successful in life and school.
-Be genuinely happy
-Find something I've been searching for for quite sometime.

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

I'd like to switch lives with my future self. I want to know what will happen in my future. Have some questions answered. See who my friends are. If I still have the same friends. Am I married? Have kids? Thats about it.

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1. Sexy Can I - Ray J
2. Every Girl - Drake
3. Knock You Down - Keri Hilson
4. Steadfast - Nujabes
5. The Sweetest Love - Robin Thicke
6. Simple Living - Gym Class Heroes
7. Lover man - Robin Thicke
8. Tie My Hands - Lil wayne
9. Love In this Club part 2 - Usher
10. Lets call it off - Drake
11. Bonified - Wale
12. America - Nas
13. Beautiful Monster - Neyo
14. La La - Lil wayne
15. We Ride Remix - Rihanna

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

When I graduated high school. I have this picture printed and framed in my room in the dorms.

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear, you know who.

I really don't think you understand how I really feel and what you did. I mean time is basically the only thing to heal what happened. You make it seem like I shouldn't hurt for this long and the way I acted was unacceptable. I don't know if you're that stubborn or you know but just don't care. When we first met you use to be so sweet. Thats what I remembered about you. Now you're not the same. My friend told me maybe you just got comfortable around. That might be what happened. Sometimes I feel like you just want to hurt me and everything I say will go be used against me later on. I don't know if you've ever had what happened to me happened to you but I'd like to know how you coped with it. We never really talked about that kind of stuff. There are some things I know you did knowing full well what it would do to me. I only told a few people what happened and they each asked "why?!" because they know thats not suppose to happen. Even though I didn't mind it. I'd just want some questions answers, but they'll probably never be answered.

Sincerely,
Bryan Wong

Day 12- How you found out about blogspot and why you made one

I had to use a blog for English 1B. Then eventually I talked to jen cause she had one. Then I made two blogs, an academic one and this one.

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Ughh fail. Thats what happens when I try to do this when I've had a few drinks

Hmm past few days. To be honest nothing much. Cause I haven't done much. Just school. I guess Im proud I've set my priorities this semester.

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Honestly I've lost track on when im suppose to post. I think im a day behind or so.

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy W.A.L.E.D.A.N.C.E.- Wale
Sad You got it bad - Usher
Bored Whatever plays randomly on my phone
Hyped Over- Drake
Mad Hmmm idk. Some sort of old rap like Eminem or Dr. Dre.

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

I wanna lose some weight this month cause Im not happy with my body. Second would be to be ahead or at least up to date with my classwork and stuff. And just to be a little more content/happy.

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

My friends would have a big impact on me. But something I would have to say my bike.

Oh and Diamond =)

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

So I thought I did this one already but I guess it didn't save. Id have to say my favorite super hero is Batman, even though he doesn't have any super powers. Hes rich and basically he is at his physical peak. I use to love watching the cartoon when I was in elementary school. Last summer I watched all the Batman the Animated series and then when I was done I wanted more. So I watched Batman beyond. This summer I rewatched them all again. Then I went to buy batman arkham asylum for my xbox. Pretty fun game and gave me a lot more information on the batman universe. It shows all batmans enemies, allies, and other people.

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Hmm never really took a picture of a place. This is a picture of my family when we went to China. It was a stop going up to some monk temple. Don't remember exactly when. Pretty sure it was during middle school. I took a picture of a picture cause I don't have it on my computer.

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Getting close to people and just loose contact. Happens every semester. And in high school. Terrible habit. Also biting my nails. Done it ever since I was little. I stopped this summer, then summer school started and I started biting again. School does it I guess.

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

The circle <3

Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name

Kinda got it from the joke "Two wongs don't make a white/right".

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

So I found this on my friends tumblr and I thought it be a good idea to do it as a blog. Or maybe get a tumblr...



Not really a picture of me. But I don't take pictures of myself and I haven't done anything fun this summer.
1. I entered sjsu as a computer engineer cause my cousin is a computer engineer. Or at least I think he is. I didn't like programming so I switched.
2. Contrary to popular belief Im not a hypebeast. And I don't really think people know what the term really means.
3. First thing I notice about a person 99% of the time is their shoes. Then I work my way up.
4. I use to draw but then I stopped when I started college. I still have my sketch book in my room.
5. I played the trumpet when I was in elementary school. Like 4th grade I think. Then I picked it back up freshman year of high school. Then stopped.
6. I didn't go to Lowell. But I like to make people try and convince people I did. Spellicy ap econ. Hunt math. Dickerman physics. I think it was physics...
7. I have a bad memory. I'll remember I have to get/do something. Then when Im about to do/get it I forget it. Like going to my room to get something. I know I have to get something but forget what. Then I walk away and remember it later.
8. I tend to keep to myself a lot.
9. I prefer to hang out with one person rather than a big group.
10. I get close to people and then drift apart.
11. My vision got worse over the years and Im pretty much blind without my glasses. I can't watch tv, play games, drive, etc.
12. I have a sweet tooth. Most of the times after dinner.
13. I've changed since high school. Physically and mentally. I was much nicer in high school. Freshman year I was like 170 lbs. Now Im around 150. I was around 140 for a while.
14. I hate the hard hairs on my chin. I have to pluck them or else theyll bother me until I pluck them out.

Lately I've been having a hard time sleeping. I'm tired but I just can't sleep, like right now. I didn't drink or eat anything to keep me up. I didn't nap so idk what's wrong. During summer school I was able to sleep when I wanted too. Idk what the problem is.

Anyways I finished fixing my ds. I did it halfway and realized I had to solder the speakers. Had to go to radio shack to get it. Kinda messed up the flow of me fixing it. Started playing with it and got bored of it right away. Atleast its fixed.

Finished polishing my wheel. Its where I like it to be. But ill polish it some more tomorrow. I'm thinking of doing my other wheel cause silver and purple don't really match, right? But its gonna be a pain to do the process over. The sanding wasn't hard just removing the anodization (purple color). Ill post pics later I'm on my phone now.

I caught a cough. Idk if its from staying outside the porch working on my wheel or maybe inhaling all that sandpaper/paint/junk doing the wheel. I guess ill wear a mask next time.

Summers almost over. Went by pretty fast. Didn't get to do what I had planned to this summer.

Have you ever had a dream about someone you never met before? I had one today. I always thought dreams were what was in our subconscious. So it got me thinking where did this person come from? Does this person exist? Maybe it was a person I saw watching tv. Or when I was out shopping or doing something. Maybe looking through friends facebook pictures. I think I would remember if it was. But its just a thought

So I talked to my cousin about working at the store. He hired a group of guys so he doesnt really need me anymore. I guess thats what I get for going to summer school. Don't worry Jen Ill get your sweatshirt sooner or later. I had plans of running when I was done with summer school but I thought about it and said to myself I should just enjoy my summer before next semester. I'll start running and working out next semester, I have it all planned out. Well for the rest of my summer I got two projects planned. Polish my wheel. Which is getting more complicated as I start reading. I got most of the stuff I need but I bought the wrong polish. Hopefully Kragens will have the one I need. Plus I need a really fine grit sandpaper. Second thing is fixing my ds screen. I bought a screen but I didn't read carefully and bought a screen that didn't have the screwdriver I needed. Then I bought it on ebay and the seller sent me the wrong screwdrivers. Ohh well. Imma polish my water bottle first and see how that turns out before I start anything on my wheel.

Quote was too big to put in the title.

"I think I’m spending all my time with the wrong women
I think I have a chance at love but knowing me I miss it
cause me dedicating my time just isn’t realistic
man the good girls went silent on me
they got a boyfriend or left for college on me"

Thank Me Now - Drake

So summer school is over. I passed. So I didn't waste my summer. I still have to pay for the class and to send my transcript lol.

Recap
I was waitlisted number 3 or 2. The class was full. The class had a capacity of 30. Then 10 on the waitlist. First day of school, like 20 people showed up to class. Then after each test people dropped. In the end the class ended up with less than 10 people. Then 4 people showed up to the optional final. I guess I made a few friends in the class. Kinda sad this one girl dropped after the 3rd final. Her major was physics too. She was really nice too always say hi to me in the morning. Other people didn't say anything and just kept to themselves. Anyways no more driving 30 minutes back and forth everyday. Waking up early.

Summer is about to end less than a month. I thought three months would be a lot of time to do what I had planned to do. I don't want to go back to San Jose. I always say that but you have no idea how much I dread it. I feel like theres nothing for me in San Jose.

Well with the last month of summer hopefully my cousin still needs some help. Gives me something to do instead of staying at home. Plus Ill get paid. I couldn't work for him while i was at summer school. We'll see.

"She used to be the sweetest girl ever
Now she like sour amaretto"

I was bored and decided to take a picture of all the shoes I have. I forgot a pair of vans tho. In high school I always wanted to wear something different everyday. But now, I basically wear the same thing everyday. White tee, jeans, vans or dunks. I should really sell some. I don't even wear half of them.

Really quick

So I stayed after class today to do homework. And then this girl asked me which one I was on and she helped me with some of the problems I had. Then we had small talk as we were doing our work. I said I commuted everyday from sf. She said she was from Sausalito which is near Vallejo. Then shes like "Can I get a ride?". Its kinda like you just met me and you're asking me for a ride? Im like a complete stranger. How do you know Im not a serial killer or something, right?! Personally I wouldn't ask someone I just met for a ride. Idk. I hope she doesn't expect a ride everyday.

"I went hard like Medusa staring at me"

Green Light - John Legend

So I finished my first week at Canada college. Im behind on homework. Have a lab report to do. And a exam to study for next week. It feels good to get the homework problems right, but then frustrating when I can't get the right answers. Haven't made a friend in class. Just did labs with them. Im not really looking for friends at Canada. I just wanna get it done. Plus theres not a whole bunch of people in the class. Like less than 20. People don't show up. The commute isn't really bad driving down. Just 30 minutes back and forth. Redwood city is like the halfway mark between sf and sj. When I have my break I just go to my car, turn on the radio and eat my lunch. At least its always sunny down and warm down there. First week is over just got five left.

I've come to the conclusion I have become very bitter. One of the reason is because I seem to help people, but when I ask for help no one helps me. Like last semester, I get a text or a call, I know that person isn't gonna ask how Im doing or chat just to say hi. They're asking me to help them or something in their favor. And I just feel like not helping anymore. I mean, I'll help people, but Imma be selective. I guess the only way to counteract the bitterness is to find someone sweet, right?

You ever get a taste of something? And not be able to get it again? It doesn't necessarily have to be food.

Last note. I don't don't really watch tv shows. One that I watched on occasions was Nip / Tuck. It's probably one of my favorite tv shows. Well anyways I watched all 6 seasons before summer school. And I must say, if you have time you should watch it =)

"I better find your love and I better find your heart"

Ever since summer we haven't spent much quality time. This kind of thing happens when Im away from San Jose. On the occasion that she does come back home with me, we still don't spend much time together. I want to but its not really the same when Im at home. She's not my first and I've been with her for awhile now. Honestly I want a new one, but I can't let go. I have looked at others, and have a few in mind. I haven't really told anyone about it just one person. He said I should just stay with her for awhile. I mean if I do get a new one, Im the jealous type and I wouldn't want her to be with anyone else.

















Of course Im talking about my bike =)

im in physics class right now

Gotta love a phone with internet. And with a keyboard. I really like the droid. I'm bored in class and I don't feel like taking notes. Lately I've been in an usher mood. I got his new album raymond vs raymond. Its ok. I liked his last two albums more. Here I stand pland confessions.

This semester wasn't that great. It has to be the worst so far. There is like one or two good things tho. I had high hopes for this semester. I'm failing one class. I honestly don't think its my fault. It takes two right? Like I read the book the teacher helps emphasize points and stuff. The fault can't be all on me.

Gotta take summer school this summer. I either find a place in sj and take school in sj. Or I commute everyday to redwood city. That's not to bad tho. Id get to go home everyday and not have to worry about food. I gotta make a decision soon before I won't have a choice to choose which one I want.

I can really use summer time. I'm sick of sj. Being away from it for like 3 months would be a good thing. Hopefully summer time will be good. I don't need to go anywhere. I just need that time to relax and etc.

"And the weather so breezy. Man why can't life always be this easy"

Flashing lights- Kanye West

I use to read horoscopes in high school. I read them occasionally now. Mostly when Im using my itouch in the bathroom, or when I cant sleep. I remember this one horoscope, it said something along the lines of "Would you continue eating spicy food if it gave you heartburn? Now apply that to people."
The way I interpreted that was, would you continue being friends with someone if they kept hurting you. When I read them in high school, I would always read them after the day is done. My reason was so that I could see if it anything came true. If I read them before my day started, I would be looking or trying to make my horoscope come true. Most of the times the horoscopes were off and thats probably why I stopped reading them lol.

Another random note. If you ask for advice from anymore, each person has a different answer. Which one do you choose? Or how do you decide which one to choose?

Another random note. I think Im getting a new phone tomorrow =) Not gonna get my hopes up though, but we shall see.

"No band aid for me boy. She shoots me with happiness and I bleed joy"

Operate On Me- Lil Wayne ft. Wyclef Jean

Have you ever missed someone? Like you could miss someone for not seeing them for a few days, or weeks, and even months. How about years? I have a really bad habit of getting close to people and then some how some way I just lose contact.
Well the other day I spent the day with someone I haven't seen in about two years. I wrote about it yesterday but didn't publish it cause it was too much. I'll keep it short here. She has changed since the last time I saw her. Her hair isn't high lighted anymore. She dresses a bit differently. She lost some weight. She has a different scent then before. Andddd she has a boyfriend. Makes me wonder how much I've changed since high school. Seeing her really lifted my spirits. I feel much better than I was in San Jose. There's really no way to explain how much better I feel. I think once I go back to San Jose this feeling is gonna go away. I dread going back to San Jose. I'll try to stay positive though.

On another note my birthday is coming up. I never really celebrate my birthdays. Idk why. People ask me "What do you want for your birthday?" I reply "I don't want anything." I mean of course there are things I want but idk. My friend asked me that the other day and I replied with "I don't want anything." Then she said "Your birthday comes once a year and its the only time you can tell people to get you things!" That made me think. But all the things I want are expensive or I have to obtain it myself. Also, Im pretty picky with things. Like I want a watch but I want it small and not gigantic. A new backpack, it can't be too big or boxy. A pair of dunks is what I want but then it can't be fake or whatever. And theres always this one thing I want but Ill keep that to myself =X
Also Idk what imma do for my birthday. I was gonna plan something but I'll probably do a dinner with my family. Or maybe I'll do a lunch thing with friends? Then at night maybe bar hopping? I really don't know. It is my 21st birthday I should do something right?

This weekend

This weekend was one of the most enjoyable weekends Ive had in awhile. Jen gave me a ride back Friday night. Thanks Jen! Then Saturday we had lunch and boba. Then at night met up with Jen, Karen, and Henryder. Sometimes its just nice to go out and spend time with people. Just wanted to say Thanks =)

New shoes and old shoes. And Diamond in the background.

I don't think anyone cares about this

The guy in the middle is Gilbert Arenas. He was fined(I think or he will be) and suspended for bringing a gun into a stadium. Then that picture was taken like a few days ago. When I saw it on tv I lol'd to myself.

Andrew Bynum. Its not a clear picture cause I was in a rush and tried to take it as fast as I could. It basically says that he plays better when Pau Gasol doesn't play. And I have Andrew Bynum on my fantasy team. Pau Gasol is injured for a few days. So thats a good thing for me. Whenever I think of Andrew Bynum. I think of this video.

"Give me the fuckin ball"