"No band aid for me boy. She shoots me with happiness and I bleed joy"

Operate On Me- Lil Wayne ft. Wyclef Jean

Have you ever missed someone? Like you could miss someone for not seeing them for a few days, or weeks, and even months. How about years? I have a really bad habit of getting close to people and then some how some way I just lose contact.
Well the other day I spent the day with someone I haven't seen in about two years. I wrote about it yesterday but didn't publish it cause it was too much. I'll keep it short here. She has changed since the last time I saw her. Her hair isn't high lighted anymore. She dresses a bit differently. She lost some weight. She has a different scent then before. Andddd she has a boyfriend. Makes me wonder how much I've changed since high school. Seeing her really lifted my spirits. I feel much better than I was in San Jose. There's really no way to explain how much better I feel. I think once I go back to San Jose this feeling is gonna go away. I dread going back to San Jose. I'll try to stay positive though.

On another note my birthday is coming up. I never really celebrate my birthdays. Idk why. People ask me "What do you want for your birthday?" I reply "I don't want anything." I mean of course there are things I want but idk. My friend asked me that the other day and I replied with "I don't want anything." Then she said "Your birthday comes once a year and its the only time you can tell people to get you things!" That made me think. But all the things I want are expensive or I have to obtain it myself. Also, Im pretty picky with things. Like I want a watch but I want it small and not gigantic. A new backpack, it can't be too big or boxy. A pair of dunks is what I want but then it can't be fake or whatever. And theres always this one thing I want but Ill keep that to myself =X
Also Idk what imma do for my birthday. I was gonna plan something but I'll probably do a dinner with my family. Or maybe I'll do a lunch thing with friends? Then at night maybe bar hopping? I really don't know. It is my 21st birthday I should do something right?

This weekend

This weekend was one of the most enjoyable weekends Ive had in awhile. Jen gave me a ride back Friday night. Thanks Jen! Then Saturday we had lunch and boba. Then at night met up with Jen, Karen, and Henryder. Sometimes its just nice to go out and spend time with people. Just wanted to say Thanks =)